My little baby Matilda,

I try to envision the day with you here in my arms. That day will come and I will have to remember what life was like before you entered my World.

Looking ahead, or looking back, my vision shifts but I focus my eyes on you.

Your presence will be felt more and more with each passing day and I am reminded of that while time brings you closer to me.

If I could change anything in the World, it would be, to be able to have you in my arms.

My deepest hope is that through the holes of my brokenness, my hope, Love and my light shines through to you all the more.

You are more than I dared to hope for, more than I could have imagined in my wildest dreams. You are beautiful, magnificent you.

An adventure I can not wait to share. A gift I can not wait to unwrap. A soul I can not wait to cherish and share with the World. You are what I always wanted.

You are my rainbow. A promise of hope, a sign of God’s favor, after the darkest storm.

One day you might feel the wind and the rain as the remnants of that storm blow over us time and time again.

Thank you for being here. For making it. For fighting hard. I thank God for you.

Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh, why can’t I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow.
Why, oh, why can’t I?