2018-04-20 Muscat, Oman / I didn’t know I was Lost / Ich wusste nicht, dass ich verloren war / Eu não sabia que estava Perdido / No sabia que estaba Perdido

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What do you do when you do not know what to do? Where do you turn when you do not know where to turn?

Confused, desperate, lost in this World, where you are forced to make the choice as to what is real and what is not.

This deep void that you just can not fill. It is no longer just a ‘bad day’, it is now starting to extend longer than you previously thought.

You do not know what it is, all you know is you are left feeling alone, searching for something you do not even know what to look for.

You do not know how to get from where you are to where you want to be. It is not the same as being stranded (when you do know how to get where you want to go) or abandoned.

Being lost is not a simple problem of immobility or imprisonment. Neither is it the same as not knowing where you are.

You can also be lost intellectually, emotionally, or spiritually.

It is not unusual to feel lost in the middle of your life while sitting in your own living room, and it is possible to remain lost for months, years, or permanently.

These feelings happen to everyone in life. The happiest people on the planet have felt this before, and for some it lasts a few days, and for others much, much longer.

It is an awful situation to be in, as loneliness can be such a powerful negative emotion.

It stops you in your tracks and not only makes you miserable inside, but forces you to wear this mask of ‘I am fine’, even though you are definetely not fine.

Bergling died on 20 April 2018 near Muscat, Oman, at the age of 28. No cause of death was immediately given.

On 1 May, TMZ reported that the cause of death was a suicide due to self-inflicted injuries with a broken wine bottle, with Bergling eventually dying of blood loss.

On 22 May, Bergling’s family announced plans for a private funeral with the people who were closest to him. Bergling was buried on 8 June. Already on 26 April, his family released an open letter stating

Our beloved Tim was a seeker, a fragile artistic soul searching for answers to existential questions. An over-achieving perfectionist who travelled and worked hard at a pace that led to extreme stress.

When he stopped touring, he wanted to find a balance in life to be able to be happy and to do what he loved most – music.

He really struggled with thoughts about Meaning, Life, Happiness.

He could now not go on any longer.

He wanted to find peace.

Tim was not made for the business machine he found himself in; he was a sensitive guy who loved his fans but shunned the spotlight.

Tim, you will forever be loved and sadly missed.

The person you were and your music will keep your memory alive.

We love you,

The Family

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can’t tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start

They tell me I’m too young to understand
They say I’m caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don’t open up my eyes
Well that’s fine by me

So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost

I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don’t have any plans

Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life’s a game made for everyone
And love is the prize

So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost

Didn’t know I was lost

The Wanderer learns there are four necessary components to the art of being lost.

First, he must in fact be lost.

Second, he must know he is lost and accept it.

Third, he must have adequate survival knowledge, skills, and physical or spiritual tools.

Fourth, and most important, he must practice nonattachment to any particular result of being lost, such as being found by a certain time, or at all.

In other words, he must accept his condition, relax into it, and arrive fully where he is.

Whether he is physically, emotionally, soulfully, or spiritually lost, getting to know the experience of being lost in the most intimate terms is the only true way out.