Your Love and compassion has transformed into panic and anxiety. You apologize and cry more than you ever have in your life.
You barely sleep, and you wake up every morning feeling anxious. You have no idea what happened to your relaxed, fun, easygoing Self.
After you meet a psychopath, you will feel insane, exhausted, drained, shocked, and empty. You tear apart your entire life, spending money, ending friendships, and searching for some sort of reason.
Psychopaths make up about one percent of the population and most of them are not serial killers.
They are your co-worker who somehow seems to get away with everything. They are that perfect ex who ran off with someone else. They are just the totally normal guy who served you coffee this morning.
Psychopaths look like you and me, but there is one big difference: they do not have a conscience.
They can harm others with absolutely no sense of remorse or guilt. They spend their lives learning how to mimic normal Human emotions, but they do not actually experience any of those feelings.
Things like compassion, Love, trust, and forgiveness – all just convenient vulnerabilities to be exploited.
Psychopaths will slip through life unnoticed. They are likable, friendly, and charming.
But to those who are unfortunate enough to become close to a psychopath, a nightmare will begin to unfold. What starts as a fairy tale slowly transforms into an incomprehensible mind game and chaos.
When you meet a psychopath, things move extremely fast. They tell you how much they have in common with you and how perfect you are for them.
Like a chameleon, they mirror your hopes, dreams, and insecurities to form an immediate bond of trust and excitement.
They constantly initiate communication and seem to be fascinated with you on every level.
You will quickly find a soft spot in your heart for them. They often seem cute and innocent. They will probably mention their abusive ex who is still in Love with them.
They say that all they have ever wanted is some peace and quiet. They hate drama and yet, you will soon come to notice there is more drama surrounding them than anyone you have ever known.
Once you are hooked, the triangulation sets in. They surround themselves with former lovers, potential mates, and anyone else who provides them with aditional attention.
This includes people that the psychopath has previously denounced. This makes you feel confused and creates the perception that the psychopath is in high demand at all times.
They deny their own manipulative behavior and ignore evidence when confronted with it. They become dismissive and critical if you attempt to disprove their fabrications with facts.
Instead of them actually addressing their inappropriate behavior, somehow it always becomes your fault for being sensitive and crazy.
Psychopaths condition you to believe that the problem is not the abuse itself, but instead your reactions to their abuse.
There is always an excuse for everything, even things that do not require excusing. They make up lies faster than you can question them. They constantly blame others; it is never their fault.
They spend more time rationalizing their behavior than improving it. Even when caught in a lie, they express no remorse or embarrassment.
They directed all attention to you, which makes it confusing when they begin to withdraw and focus on other people.
After showering you with nonstop attention and admiration, they suddenly seem completely bored by you.
They treat you with silence and become very annoyed that you are interested in continuing the passionate relationship that they created.
They drain the energy from you and consume your entire life.
Their demand for adoration is insatiable. You thought you were the only one who could make them happy, but now you feel that anyone with a beating pulse could fit the role.
The truth is, no one can fill the void of a psychopaths soul.